TOXIC

I don’t want you and you know that.... we just not going to work out. There’s no need to even try so why do you keep bothering. Are you just obsessed or you are way over your head thinking with all the multiple girls I could have I’ll still want to stick to one ... and wait quick thought it’s supposed to be you?

It hurts when you say those things... I feel mortised. To think I know I could do better than you, I’ve been offered better than you. But guess what I’m scandalized cause my heart wants what it wants. Even in the moments, those quick flashy moments that seem so unreal everything inside of me feels like home. I can’t undo what my head keeps doing to me and how my heart reacts when you beside me with a little bit of Jones that tells me you are made for me. Toxic as it may be it’s what I want and it’s what I keep fighting and beating myself for! Even when I know it just can’t be mine.

Toxic is a bitch! It keeps you hoping and holding on to things that have possibilities with no end. You just want to wait till you run out of all options and reasons then you find some more. To sit in the same crappy position all over again

Asking when am I going to be saved but you not ready to make no moves to help yourself

You know you like it there... in the hurt and pain and rejection....

With the toxic!